In my lifetime I have moved everywhere. I have no home in my heart. When I was 1, i moved to calgary,when i was 9, i moved to Hamilton, Ont, and when i was 11 I moved to Milwaukee Wisconsin. I never really liked it in Wisconsin, so i ran away when I was 18 and joined the armed forces.... There I have gone everywhere like North Carolina and washington DC. I didn't like it in WDC or Wisconsin.... Wen i got out of the army I moved to fredericksburg Texas w/ my girlfriend. I went to school there a while, but, in the end i got tired of all the no name drug dealers around and moping around w/ no one, and the ignorant peeple who didnt understand my veterans status (95% or 100% of people werhe very nice there). I drove up to canada tosee my nephew and my brother, on a straight shot. It was pretty hard getting here. Ive felt abused from people in the army, etc, and felt like I was always left in the dark about everything. im now living in winnipeg now and working a job at a Korean market. Though my grandparents really underappreciate me, for that Ive fixed all of there computer problems, shoveled their snow mowed their lawn every single day & bought them all sorts of dinners/rent, I quit my job for one day while im here b/c im waiting on federal emp, and they get mad at me, (i quit my job at a construction zone b/c i needed to call my circuit courts in tex to make sure my problems were fixed up, and also i was afraid that the jackhammer dust was settling in my lungs wen they didnt provide me a proper mask.), so i quit my job one day & go without a job 12 days, or maybe 8.5, and they freak out on me even tho' im working Temp./looking. They tell everyone, every single person behind my back about it, and always complain about me being here when im not looking... I dont even love my mom and dad, i dont want to go back to milwaukee, it sucks there, and i was thinking about going out on a limb b/c a friend west of Medicine Hat, Ab, in a city of 15K, has offered me to move there to get a job "roofing houses" for 20.00. Which would be decent wages. I dont want to move to saskatoon b/c i would feel imposing on my brother, even though he is "dying for me to come out", in a way. I would feel like I'm mooching off all his friends, and bargaining for his friends like i have a right to them, + hes doing ecstacy while caring for his baby, and partying like that. The main reson why i dont want to move to Sask. is because of his Xtacy using. I cant find a fucking job here besides making $9.00 an hour anyway. i fought for my country in the us, did what was demanded of me, and lost my conscious in the process & seem became a psychopath in the process. I only know the chick who's inviting me to W> of Medicine Hat off the internet. Shes been a longterm buddy, and its just face value, just talking and platonic. Tho' i know shes done drugs like meth and crank in the past, i 'kno that now she is off of them, as she has told me, and is taking care of her 2 kids and is very caring. I know that she gets a good disability and pension b/c of having a heart murmur/defect so she doesnt even have to work, and she keeps the internet, and keeps good care of her kids, But, is that enough to trust her on? Im alienated past all my old friends anyways, to the point where my old friends are fucked up anyways and are like newspaper editorial publishers from calgary who have too little time to talk to me, and the other from calgary hates me after I disclosed to him i was in the army, as he is a Vietnamese supporter and has visitied vietnam, and is like a procommunist and antisoldier person. I feel ike i've lost all my friends anyways and become actually a psychopath, so I feel like why shouldnt I move to medicine hat, where i have atleast a slim posibility at a social life? & If i get a job? I mean right now here, it isnt the economic thing, because I still have a bit (26 months wo), of my MGI bill / army college money that they'll let me use. So i could be doing that over hear. But I DUNNO WHAT I WANT TO DO. Im dropping wisconsin like its ghonhorrea. Dont like it.. LOL. Dont kno as what i should do. What are your thoughts? Id probably be making 1600 $ every 2 weeks doing the roofing.... And Id probably apply for a postal job if I got wore out of that job, physically... Its only like 94 miles away from a great great uncle, 5 cousins and my mothers cousins, and some miscelaneous people...
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I am from Iowa and I know what you are talking about with wisconsin! they are a little bit red necked there. I think you really need to get some counseling. You also need to decide what you would like to do as a way of making a living. Cutting ties with those that are drug addicts is probably a good idea too. You need to make yourself happy, not anyone else! You are making yourself unhappy trying to make your family and friend happy. Thank you for your service in the military and good luck!
